inspiration 1.

"problems are a part of life. they are inescapable: woven into the very fabric of this fallen world. you tend to go into problem-solving mode all too readily, acting as if you have the capacity to fix everything. this is a habitual response, so automatic that it bypasses your conscious thinking not only does this habit frustrate you, it also distances you from Me. do not let fixing things be your top priority. you are ever so limited in your capacity to correct all that is wrong in the world around you. don't weigh yourself down with responsibilities that are not your own. instead, make your relationship with Me your primary concern. talk with Me about whatever is on your mind, seeking My perspective on the situation. rather than trying to fix everything that comes to your attention, ask Me to show you what is truly important. remember that you are en route to heaven, and let your problems fade in the Light of eternity."


"i will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; i will counsel you and watch over you" psalm 32:8

as much as i hate to admit it, this is one of my biggest downfalls. i'm completely stubborn when it comes to relying on others, especially regarding my plans and my future. i feel i have to do it alone. i'm the only one that can control the outcomes right? false. dumb, really. but so much easier than done to give up that control. being a linear thinker and problem solver, i always think there is a solution to something. a way to get from point a to point b. and when it doesn't, i get beyond frustrated. precisely why i'm a math/science emphasis major. formula based. there's always something to fix. some imperfection. something that can bettered. something i could have worked harder on. i know i always catch myself praying to the Lord about just the most petty things. before a test "Lord please let me remember everything i've crammed into my brain, i've worked too hard to screw this up" or a "please let my day go smoothly, i can't take any more stress" rather than "Lord, whatever this day brings, let it be for You and Your glory. i trust You." selfish, really. during this past year, i've realized how much more there is to life than grades, gossip, and other materialistic and superficial things. i've learned to try and strive for what the Lord wants for me. key word being try. it's just a matter of me being honest with myself. take a second. think about it.